Trusting God

Trusting God (2.7.16)

As I am emerging from my cocoon, I am feeling vulnerable and having moments of mini-panic attacks. It’s challenging to feel confident when critical people around me are not able to support me 100%. I posted something very personal about myself recently (see Beast of Burden post) and the only support that I am receiving is from two dear friends, my precious children, and the Spirit world. Although this work is about me and my story, my disclosure triggers issues and lessons for those around me to learn.

In a moment of self-doubt, created by a discussion with a loved one, I did a Goddess reading using Doreen Virtue’s oracle cards and asked the question, “Should I take down this ‘Beast of Burden’ post? Is it too early in my unfolding process to share this personal information with my readers?” Following are the cards and the information that I received:

Ixchel – Medicine Woman – “You are a channel for Divine healing power.”
Aeracura – Blossoming – “You are just getting started, so have patience with yourself and the process, and do not give up.”
Sarasvati – The Arts – “Express yourself through creative activities.”

Those cards indicate to me that I am right where I am supposed to be.

While I was dreaming last night, the following music came to me which bypasses our conscious “thinking” brains. In other words, we receive information from God and our “sub-conscious” brains during our dream states. I listen to songs as if my soul or God is singing to me. The following information feels fascinating and comforting.

“Let It Be” by the Beatles

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

And when all the brokenhearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be

For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah, there will be an answer let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be

I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Yeah, let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

“Jack & Jill” nursery rhyme

Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water
Jack fell down and broke his crown
And Jill came tumbling after.

“Beautiful Liar” by Beyonce and Shakira

Ay
Ay
Ay (Nobody likes to be played)
Oh, Beyonce, Beyonce
Oh, Shakira, Shakira

(Hey!)

He said, I’m worth it, his one desire
(I know things about him that you wouldn’t wanna read about)
He kissed me, his one and only
(This) Beautiful liar
(Tell me how you tolerate the things you just found out about)

You’ll never know
Why are we the ones who suffer
Have to let go
He won’t be the one to cry

(Ay) Let’s not kill the Karma
(Ay) Let’s not start a fight
(Ay) It’s not worth the drama
For a beautiful liar
(Oh) Can’t we laugh about it (Ha ha ha)
(Oh) It’s not worth our time
(Oh) We can live without him
Just a beautiful liar

I trusted him
But when I followed you
I saw you together
(I didn’t know about you then ’till I saw you with him again)
I walked in on your love scene
Slow dancing
(You stole everything how can you say I did you wrong)

We never know
When the pain and heartbreaks over
Have to let go
The innocence is gone

(Ay) Let’s not kill the Karma
(Ay) Let’s not start a fight
(Ay) It’s not worth the drama
For a beautiful liar
(Oh) Can’t we laugh about it (Ha ha ha)
(Oh) It’s not worth our time
(Oh) We can live without him
Just a beautiful liar

Tell me how to forgive you
When it’s me who’s ashamed
And I wish I could free you
Of the hurt and the pain
But the answer is simple
He’s the one to blame

(Hey!)

Ay, Beyonce, Beyonce
Ay, Shakira, Shakira
Oh, Beyonce, Beyonce
Oh, Shakira, Shakira
(Hey!)

(Ay) Let’s not kill the Karma
(Ay) Let’s not start a fight
(Ay) It’s not worth the drama
For a beautiful liar
(Oh) Can’t we laugh about it (Ha ha ha)
(Oh) It’s not worth our time
(Oh) We can live without him
Just a beautiful liar

“I’m Yours” by Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out I’ll be giving it my bestest
And nothing’s going to stop me but Divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people, dance and sing
We’re just one big family
And it’s our God-forsaken right to be loved loved love love

So I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate, our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

D-d-do do you, but do you, d-d-do
But do you want to come on
Scooch on over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain’t no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It’s what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m yours
Open up your mind and see like me
(I won’t hesitate)
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
(No more, no more)
Look into your heart and you’ll find that the sky is yours
(It cannot wait, I’m sure)

So please don’t please don’t, there’s no need
(There’s no need to complicate)
There’s no need to complicate
(Our time is short)
Our time is short
(This is our fate)
This is, this is, this is our fate
I’m yours

Oh, I’m yours
Oh, I’m yours
Oh, whoa, baby you believe I’m yours
You best believe, best believe I’m yours

I will continue to trust God and the purpose of my life – to live out my true life’s Mission, to be the best person that I can be, and to help guide others back “home” which is the source from which we are all created – Love.